Ah! So two more days until I get these horrid teeth pulled! But alas, now I am having second thoughts! My dentist says that they really need to be pulled, but I also have TMJD (Temporomandibular joint disorder) and I have heard from lots of research that getting your wisdom teeth pulled actually WORSENS TMJD! Which would royally suck because these symptoms already suck ass, and if they were too worsen I don't know what I would do! And if it does get any worse I may have to get some splint or something for my teeth to sleep with....how attractive.

I don't know, but I really do need these things out! But it's like I feel like I'm damned if I do and damned if don't. The whole thing just really sucks. And I guess I am having general anesthesia. Not too sure if I'm keen on the whole idea but...yea. I heard if it's just local anesthesia that you can feel the pressure and pulling and hear the cracking of teeth....doesn't sound too fun. But at the same time I would kind of like to be aware of what's going on....eh.

Anyways, I'm going to talk to my oral surgeon before the actual procedure and see if it's the right thing to do. Cause having my mouth open for the procedure, with TMJ that's a long time to have your jaw open (I think it's like an hour). My jaw already clicks/cracks when I open it, and I don't want it to be furthered damaged for staying open that long. It's so weird cause it literally just happened over the course of the last month. I hear sometimes it clears up on it's own. And I also may have to get invisalign for my bottom teeth cause I guess the bottom wisdom teeth pushed some of the teeth forward and it's interferring with my bite....which is also making my TMJ worse. FREAKIN TEETH!! Anyways, I just want this all over with already.

Needless to say i'm going to be awol for a bit after this, I hope I heal up quickly! And that I can eat! I need my foods! >_<

mood: anxious tags: dentist, wisdom teeth

TMJ sucks. *cries*

mood: cranky

So the trip to New York is off. For obvious reasons, with all of the Swine Flu stuff going on it's just not too great of an idea. And I guess New York has the most cases in the US. I thought I 'd be disappointed but I'm actually just hoping everyone there get's better. Vacations can wait till another time. And besides, after I get my teeth pulled I'll probably be too doped up to even want to go anywhere, lol.

mood: lazy

Ugh, I am sooo tired. And even though I am I can't sleep...it's weird. I've been up since like 6:45 and was lying in bed for about an hour but once I realized I couldn't  fall back to sleep I decided to get up. And I still feel groggy and sleepy....eh. I don't know, maybe I can't sleep cause I have a lot of stuff on my mind, and even though I try to push it aside it's like...still there ya know? I don't know it's just random stuff and if my mind is racing I guess I can't sleep.

But anyways. So I'm getting my wisdom teeth pulled next week. Aaahhh! I'm scared as hell but it needs to be done. I mean this is like a long time coming. And I really wanted it done before heading to NY because I don't want to have to worry about headaches and all that stuff while down there. But still I am not looking forward to it. I don't think I want them to put me to sleep, that whole idea just freaks me out. And seeing as how the bottom wisdom teeth (which is the ones they are pulling ) have already partly broken through the gums...it shouldn't be too hard to pull them out. At least I hope! I don't know, the oral surgeon said it's up to me whether I want the tops ones removed cause he said they aren't bad and he didn't forsee them giving me any problems down the line. Then again, since I have headaches it could be because of those buggers! But for now I'm just getting the bottoms out....scary!

My boyfriend Ryan is graduating college in a few weeks! So proud of him! I would be right along there with him if I didn't drop to part time student a couple semesters back...blah! But I will have my associates not much later! Even though I already want to get a degree in a totally different major...haha...don't tell the parents!

And oh yeah I bought another BJD, or ordered one. Even though I had told Ryan I wouldn't buy one for a long time...but I just found a really pretty Crobidoll and I couldn't resist! Now I need to get him clothes but he's a different type of body, and even for an SD he's bigger (in height not so much width) so I don't know where I can get stuff for him....other than Crobidoll of course.

O yeah and I pre ordered Dissidia! It's supposed to be out in August in the states. I've been closely monitoring this game, it looks so awesome! It would be perfect if Zack was in it too but....ah, what can I say. I'll take what I can get!

So....I've rambled enough. Bleh. At least I'm a little more awake now, lol. Ah writing is good for the soul...I guess! Haha!

mood: restless music: TV in the background

Hey everyone!

So I am selling two of my Z/C Yubinbasya Doujinshi! *shocked gasps* Don't worry, don't worry these are doubles! How I managed to get doubles I don't know, but it happens a lot...I buy things that I didn't realize I already have or something since I have so much crap. Anyways, take a look and let me know if you are interested! 


( Peach Pit 2 )


( Itan No Hana )

mood: hungry tags: spring cleaning

Whoo!!

Hell yeah I am sooo excited! I am going to New York for a week! Freakin New York!!! Aaahhh! I have wanted to go there forever! We just bought the tickets and have already reserved our hotel room which is absolutely gorgeous!!! It's not for a couple more weeks but whatever, the countdown has begun! The perfect vacation to celebrate the end of the school year! Yay!! I thought I was going to have to talk my boyfriend into it a lot more than I did but I'm glad he doesn't mind taking a trip there instead of some place else! Aaahh! Ok...I'm done. *dances*

mood: ecstatic music: 3OH!3-Don't trust me tags: new york!

I stole this from my friend Tak! Hehe ^_^

You Are From Saturn

You're steady, organized, and determined to achieve your dreams. You tend to play it conservative, playing by the rules (at least the practical ones). You'll likely reach the top. And when you do, you'll be honorable and responsible. Focus on happiness. Don't let your goals distract you from fun! Don't be too set in your ways, and you'll be more of a success than you ever dreamed of.

So I spent a good majority of my day yesterday working on this damn power point presentation for my class. And yeah I did have a while to do it, and I sort of put it off till the last minute. BUT! when I did try to start it on Friday, my power point program wasn't working and I didn't get it fixed until I think late Saturday night. So I had to work on it all day yesterday because it was due today and I was supposed to present it. And then my Professor decides that we have a whole bunch of other things to do during class and so I'll just have to present my project another day. What!!? Grr! You don't understand how long I was working on this thing all day, I was ready to punch my computer monitor.

And then today after school my friend and I go and grab some food from Jack in the box before going home. And for some reason the people were taking a super long time with our order. So the car behind me decides to start blowing their horn cause I guess we were taking too long. Like...yeah right, I'm just going to drive away because you honked at me? No way buddy. And I mean they were like continuously honking. It's not my fault they screwed up the order and we had to wait, and honestly, if you are in that much of rush maybe that's not the time to stop and get food. Idiots. Feh.

But despite all that, today was good! And why you ask? Because when I came home I saw a box sitting on my table! And what was inside? My Zack figure!!! Yay!! Finally he arrived! I swear there was like a holy light shining on that box. Ahh. Now I am completely satisfied! He looks so cozy sitting beside my Cloud, haha!

mood: amused

HAPPY NEW YEARS!!! YAY!!

Lol ok enough of that, but really I hope everyone had an awesome time ringing in the New Year! I Know I did!! Whoohoo! Wow I still cannot believe it's 2009, the year went by so fast!! But in any event I am still happy about the new year and I hope 2009 is only filled with great things! And hey, since we got a new President I think things for sure will be looking up!

Has everyone come up with their new years resolution? Or lets say goal or anything for the year? Hmm, I haven't myself, guess I need to get on that. Anyways, Happy New Years again everyone! Take it easy today and just enjoy the start of a fresh new year!

mood: cheerful music: Just Dance-Lady Gaga tags: new year 2009

Finals are this week! Aaahhh! Two of them I am really prepared for but the others...not so much. Hmm, guess it would probably help if I was listening to my professor now rather than being online in class. Hehe. What can I say, I have ADD! XD

location: school mood: annoyed tags: finals

Happy Turkey day everyone!

I'm glad today is here, but at the same time it feels like it came by way fast! I mean it just seemed like Halloween the other day and then bam! Thanksgiving! I just know Christmas is going to be here in a flash as well.

But none the less I'm happy for it! And definitely for the brief break from school! It was much needed. I'm over at the parentals right now, got here last night and now family is starting to arrive here. By three o'clock it will be chaotic I already know >_< tons of little kids. The only baby right now that I can tolerate is my niece Chloe! She's in my parents room asleep now.

I have a lot to be thankful for this year, actually every year I'm thankful but this year is special! I hope everyone else has an awesome holiday! And if there is any other retail people out there who have to work Black Friday...I feel your pain! *cries*

mood: thankful tags: thanksgiving

Ugh, I'm sick. I'm in class and I am not even focused on what the professor is saying. My head feels all clogged and my throat is sore and scratchy, and I keep sneezing! Ah! I need Tylenol or something, this is so lame.

mood: sick music: Nada tags: sick

Aaahhh my little niece is here!! Omg it's so amazing!! She's soo tiny and cute and I wanted to just look at her all day long!! She was born today, about two weeks early actually. I guess she wanted to get out and be apart of the world already =) I was at school and I got a phone call from my mom saying "THE BABY IS COMING!!" And I absolutely flew out of there and rushed down to the hospital. And the cool thing was my sis in law actually wasn't in labor for a very long time. That's one thing I don't get, some women can be in labor for a few hours and others can be in there forevvvvverr. I so don't want that.

But in any case the baby was born and is completely healthy! Little Chloe Mae Sasaki!  Such a cutie!  My brother and my sis in law went through many many names but had decided on Chloe about a month ago, and I absolutely love the name.

I got to hold her and she was sooo small and adorable, and then she grabbed my finger with her little hands! Aah! I am so in love with her! She's precious! Oh no I am going to spoil her rotten, lol.

Today was an awesome day! ^_~

mood: excited music: My kitty is meowing in the background.. tags: niece chloe

My ear is throbbing >_<  I got it pierced today, and while piercings usually aren't a problem for me, this one hurt! I got an industrial, the one with the skinny bar thing that like goes through the top of your ear at an angle....yeah that. I even shouted some pretty curse words when the guy pushed the needle through. He said with these type of piercings that they take longer to heal, so I can't switch the earring or anything for a while and I got to make sure to keep cleaning it. BUT, while it may still be a pain right now, I love it!! Haha!  We'll see how sleeping goes tonight since I usually sleep on my side, but well I don't think I can lay my head down on this side at all...eh.

School starts next week! Nnnnooo!

mood: sore music: L~arc~en~ciel- Ready steady go tags: piercings

Ahh having a day off feels so nice!  Getting to sleep in and be lazy, I had almost forgotten what that feels like. With working two jobs it rarely ever happens anymore. But as soon as classes start back up again (just next month in mid August, aaah!! ) I'll be dropping the second one, just got it for the summer for some extra cash! And I definitely needed it with the way my spending has been as of lately.  I am dreading to see my next credit card bill because I know it's going to be insanely high. And I mean INSANELY. But...well, I only have me to thank for that.

I've been helping to plan for my soon to be sis in law's baby shower...hehe. My brother and her were supposed to have the wedding already, but she decided against it cause she said she was too far along in the pregnancy already....and I guess no bride wants to be busting out of their wedding gown XD.  So that's been postponed, but planning the baby shower has been sooo much fun! We get to look at all these cutesy little things, party favors and whatnot. Aww, it's just an adorable process! I can't even begin to describe how excited I am about my little niece! Yep, they know the sex of the baby now! It's all really really exciting! My first niece! Yay!!

I have sooo many pictures I need to upload from Anime Expo, It was a lot of fun and we met a lot of cool people up there! I've been neglecting my LJ for a bit, but I'll start posting stuff again soon!

mood: chipper music: L~arc~en~ciel- Link tags: ax, baby shower, credit card

Hooo yeah!! Finals are over AT LAST! And that can only mean....MY SUMMER BREAK HAS OFFICIALLY BEGAN!!! I am super excited!! This semester took sooo much out of me. And even though I procrastinated at times when it came to studying, in the end, I managed to keep it all together!  Yay! My mom was trying to talk me into taking some summer course for extra units.....she must be crazy! There is no way I'm doing that! I plan to enjoy my summer break for all its worth! Now that I won't have to have my head buried in textbooks day in and day out, it gives me more free time, more me time, hehe, to do what I want! Granted I'll probably up my work hours but still, at least I'm making more money that way!

But anyways, yesterday my friend and I went to go see the Death Note live action movie at the movie theater. It was English dub, so the people's lips didn't sync up with the voices, but whatever. It's a two part though, I don't know if they'll bring the second half out at the movies, it would be cool to see it on big screen though! But yeah, there was so many fangirls in there! I mean I like Death Note too, but oh my god! There was five girls in the seats in front of us being SO loud. My friend and I didn't much mind cause the movie hadn't started yet, but once it did, they kept doing annoying stuff! And everyone time L came on they were like awwww!!! And everytime he would "eat" like candy or something, we would hear "omg kawaii!" It's like wtf, he's just eating! I mean I know it's endearing the way he eats all those sweets and looks cute but come on, calm down.  Finally, people got fed up with that and told them all to shut the hell up, haha. That was priceless. I mean, we weren't trying to ruin their fun, but damn some people wanted to watch the movie and listen to that rather than the crazy fangirls, lol. But it was fun none the less! It's an awesome movie! Death Note fans, definitely check it out!   ^_~

mood: cheerful music: Tokio Hotel-Monsoon tags: death note, finals

So today has been really nice so far. Earlier this morning we took our mom out for breakfast! It was really nice, just our family. My brother and sis and my dad. It's weird cause we are hardly ever all together like that anymore. With my brother off in graduate school and out of the house with his pregnant fiance. And then me, moved out and going to college myself. The only sibling at my parents house is my little sister. We just randomly drop by and stuff. I don't know, it's sort of weird. I mean, at one point isn't there a time in every kid's mind that just THINKS you will be little forever and living with mommy and daddy? Lol, I don't know maybe it was just me. But, that's all apart of growing up.

However, breakfast was really nice. There was no bad conversations that sometimes arise with my parents and us. Nope, everything was smooth sailing, and my mom was full of smiles the whole time, so that made me happy! We all gave her our gifts and she started to cry. I think she was really overwhelmed, but my mom is emotional...that's where I get it from! Lol.

So yea, just got back home not to long ago.  My friend called and said she wants to see Iron Man, so I may do that. I actually heard it's like really really good. I'm just always sort of cautious about comic movies like that. I mean, I liked Spider Man, but the Fantastic Four movie...the 2nd,  I thought was stupid. And Ghost Rider was alright, if it wasn't for all the special effects though it probably would've blew, lol. But so far only good comments about Iron Man! So hopefully I won't be disappointed.

And o yeah, my boyfriend got Crisis Core! I kind of took over it for a little bit so I could play through and hear the voices...I guess, they aren't as bad as I thought they may be. Though I still like the Japanese ones better! But, I'm glad he got it! So now I have the Japanese copy and he has his US Copy...I'm sure some way it'll work it's way into my stash of games though *cough cough*
But the end, ah man. Even though I knew it was coming, it still tore my heart to pieces. I could barely even play that last  battle there. *sigh* Zack, how I do love thee.

mood: happy music: Paramore-Crush tags: mother's day 08

Today was quite busy for me. Fun  though ^_^. Earlier I accompanied my friend to the tattoo parlor! She's been wanting a tat for sooo long but she has never followed through with it. So, finally choosing what she wanted we set out today so she could get one. At first she seemed alright, but once she saw the guy prepping and the needles and everything, she started to freak...pretty badly. So, my friend and I, being the good buddies that we are, took a 30 minute intermission from there and went down to my job where we made her drink two kamikaze's to relax her nerves....ha! And it worked out well, when we went back to the tattoo parlor she was way more mellow. But she was squeezing my friend and I's hand so hard during the actual process...it was like she was in labor or something. BUT! I applaud her for actually going through with it. It came out really nice too!

So then after that, it was off to Disneyland! I only live like an hour away from there and have been many times but I had family and stuff visiting and my cousins from the bay area always want to go when they come down this way. So, spent most of the day at Disneyland with friends, cousins, boyfriend and my little sis. I spent like $25 on this ring toss game...I really wanted the stuff animal of this huge white tiger, it was pretty! But after all that I still couldn't win it so my boyfriend just bought it for me, lol. Probably should've done that from the beginning. Those games have got to be rigged. I don't suck that bad...I think.

But anyways, I think I pigged out on enough sweets to last me through the summer. Funnel cake is my kryptonite. I freaking love those! That and caramel apples! Yum!

I think I screamed the loudest on the tower of terror. No matter how many times I ride that thing I still can't get used to the drops. My friend bought the picture that they take while you're riding the ride and I look like I'm screaming bloody murder...which I was >_<. Anyways, even though it was brutally hot out today, it was a fun day at the amusement park! It's nice to just go spend a whole day out like that.

mood: cheerful music: Hyde-Hello tags: disneyalnd, tattoo's

So my computer got a virus. A really really bad one at that. I don't know what to do. My boyfriend tried to fix it, ran a virus scan, opened it in safe mode to try to correct it but....still it's being weird. And it frustrates me because this computer is still really new. I guess I may just have to take it to be checked out or something. And what annoys me most is that I got the virus from some fake IM. Ugh. And the security feature didn't even warn me at all! Wtf! Anyways, *pets ill computer* hopefully it'll get fixed.

I was talking to one of my cousins who lives in San Francisco and she said it was crazy there yesterday, with the running of the torch for the Olympics.  I didn't really understand what it was all about...some protest or something? I saw on the news some people like hanging onto the wires of the golden gate bridge....that's sort of scary, it's like really really high up. But I guess yesterday it was crazy down there. My cousin didnt even go to school cause the street's were too crowded. But I think it would be cool to see the guy running with the torch, haha. 

And O yeah, I got Devil May Cry 4! IT. IS. AWESOME!!

mood: curious